Just three more days and I will join the ranks of the inebriated again.
Go to hell sepsis and take your fucking antibiotics with you.
My son said this about Enduro Trail Riding in the East Texas Piney Woods:
“Sometimes I get into flow, but sometimes the trees get too tight or the terrain is unpredictable, and if I keep riding at my normal pace I fuck up a lot because it gets trickier and ups the difficulty. But I can get impatient when my pace drops off, so I try to push it, but then I’m thinking, ‘Oh great, I’m gonna hit this tree and die.'” – Russell Yazbeck
What an all encompassing statement of life. It applies to writing and to anything where we dream our dreams and push to be better and the best we can be.
add-on (plural add-ons)
If you’ve spent any time online, you’ve been asked if you want an add-on for this or that. I’m proposing a series of personal add-ons.
Nothing physical: no surgery, no expensive therapies; rather jigsaw pieces of the puzzle of life, allowing us to discover and become our best. Character add-ons, just like software add-ons, require your permission. (Ignoring is the same as not granting permission, right?)
Have you ever had a friend or relative (our kids are usually the best source for revelation of unclaimed character flaws) tell you of a habit or tendency that they find unattractive or even down-right nauseating?
Did you feel offended? Did you respond with rational reasons why they were wrong or exaggerating or just plain lying? (I’ve been guilty of that reaction on many occasions.)
What if they’re telling the truth? Ever consider they might be doing us a big favor? If we will just listen… Even better, what if we could figure these things out on our own? Well, we can.
It requires being aware of ourselves; being aware of how we present ourselves to those around us. That means backing away from the thinking, feeling, movement, intuition and instinct that consume our attention. Step back from being entrenched in the turmoil that rages in our heads and is consequently spewed forth; step back and observe what is happening in our heads and hearts. View these happenings as an outsider would – as our kids do.
Once you’ve tackled that – I should rephrase – once you are constantly diligent in your attempts to observe yourself, you need to use those observations to tackle what is unattractive in yourself.
But I’m saving that for another post.
“Awareness is vitally important in the work of transformation because the habits of our personality let go most completely when we see them as they are occurring.” – The Wisdom of the Enneagram